Random thoughts

An update since I haven't posted in a bajillion years. Still alive, people (esp egadfly  :P).

Wedding plans

Coming along nicely. Shawl is finished and blocking. Dress is kinda halfway made (pattern is graded and mockup fits), need to do some work on Phleep's waistcoat this weekend. Still need to get the table herb things but that can wait until a few days before the event.

We are expecting a full compliment of Anastasiadisesesesseseses for the wedding. I think Phleep will be very chuffed to have all the siblings there, when we first started to plan we didn't think anyone would come. My sister is moving in with her boyfriend for the week that P's sister and bf are there so the house will be less crowded. I'm a bit nevous of the reception. I don't deal well with huge parties and lots of people and I can't go hide in the kitchen like I usually do. We'll see how it goes, I guess. There are plans to do Xmas in Germany if the honeymoon funds allows it, otherwise somewhere local.


Work

The new (since my last post) job is going well. I have more responsibility and a very varied portfolio. I'm learning a lot and it's not boring. Hopefully I will be over the backlog soon and able to get into a good routine. I can see this job expanding as we open more offices around Africa.

Social

Saw District 9 recently. Not quite sure how I feel about it (which seems to be the general mood, people watch it and then have to think about it for some time before forming an opinion). I might blog about it, I might not. I think I've said before that others' opinions of movies don't matter to me and don't affect my enjoyment/opinion of a movie, so I don't think anyone else will care what I think about it. Suffice it to say that it's really hard to watch if you're a white Saffer. I'm still a bit depressed about it.

This weekend is the hen/stag party extravaganza. I know zoezebra (get better soon!) is kidnapping me for an afternoon of outdoorsy fun on Saturday (must remember to dose with hayfever meds before leaving the house). Phleep is booked all weekend for various things that I think he will like. The exact details are a sekrit :P. My house-building thing is next Saturday, I'm really looking forward to it. It will be hard work and I might die, but I think it will be very rewarding.

Also, Storm in a G Cup is the best bra shop in the world! At last, no more tears when looking for bras that support and fit and don't look matronly :). There's a _whole drawer_ of lacy bras in my size. I'm so taking Phleep there after the wedding to buy me that teal silky lacey one. Mmmm, teal. They're a bit pricey but the service is excellent and they do all repairs and alterations for free.

That's about it, really. Must update the knit blog as soon as I've taken pics of all my recent FOs (shawl, Phleep's gloves, my rasta hat, my alpaca gloves). I haven't knitted much lately, I think I'm a bit burned out after the shawl. Also, my wrist is a bit sore but since I haven't been knitting I think that's probably the cold. Spring is here! The weather is chilly, the sun is shining and my nose is snurfly.

There's a petfood talk here tonight, until 8.30. I honestly don't see why I have to stay for it, I don't ever see myself having to help customers with pet food*. I'd much rather be at home on the couch with the cats and my knitting. I'm full of snot and my tummy hurts. And I'm tired. I need chocolate and strippers**. Or chocolate-covered strippers.

I am looking forward to one day when the world realises what an evil genius I am and pays me to not blow up the moon. Then I can stay home all day and knit and play with my cats and plot evil plans for world domination***.


* isn't that why I'm in the finance department, so that I don't have to deal with people except on the phone?!

** not necessarily in that order.

*** which I will sell on Etsy to 3rd world countries for a stonkload.


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Later that same day:

Ok, cheered up now. FSM bless Go Fug Yourself, cos nothing cheers me up like people being bitchy about other peoples' outfits. Also, tonight's talk comes catered with veg lasagne and chocolate brownies.

There's a little Phi-kitten* in ICU! Apparently a couch fell on his head, he was unconscious but is ok now. A slight concussion. He's so small!! Later I will steal him. There's also a ginger with chronic renal failure who doesn't look so good. Reminds me of Mischief (we put her down due to CRF) :(.

But srsly, who drops a couch on a kitten?! Obviously I need to take him home with me, for his own safety.

My baby Puff is coming in tomorrow to be neutered. Poor little girlie. The hardest bit will be nil per mouth tonight from 10. No food and no water. I'll have to lock her in the spare room with her litter box. Phleep is worried the procedure will affect her personality. I'm hoping it will calm her down a bit, she's a terror and the poster child for "5 of my 6 ends are pointy".


* for those who don't know Phi: he's a mackerel tabby with white bits, companion to wolverine_nun

So, the baby buffalo is doing well. His* eyes are inflamed and if they don't get better the operation will have been all in vain. He's full of life, though, attacked a nurse when she tried to give him a shot :P.

Looking forward to a weekend of vegging and knitting and watching movies. Not so looking forward to a family thing tomorrow. I don't really get on with my family, we have nothing in common. I think P and I will leave early to go watch movies at CW.

I periodically go through these self-pity phases of  "I'm so lonely, I have no friends, I miss all the friends I used to have, how did I screw up the friendships so badly, etc". It's true, I did used to have lots of friends. I did go out often with them and do stuff. I seem to have become very antisocial in the last 2 or so years. Many of the friends I cut off cos they were just no good for me. Very self-destructive relationships there. I still miss them, though, and I often think of initiating contact. Then I think "what will I say? do I still want to be friends with these people? they've changed, they are no longer the people I was friends with and who I miss". I read stuff about them on blogs and through the wonderful stalking mechanism that is Facebook, and I'm glad they are doing well for themselves. Occasionally** I indulge in a bit of schadenfreude when I hear about something bad that's happened to them. But mostly I'm happy that they are happy. There is a thing tomorrow, some of the former friends will be there. But, it's hosted by someone I really can't stand and even though I like the person for whom the party is being thrown and I like most of the people going and it might be cool to see some of the former friends in a vague way, I will be very uncomfortable in that venue. I wish I could be grown-up and just Get Over It, but I can't and I'd rather stay out of situations where I'm uncomfortable or where I'll get all miff.

I think I will post this as not friends-locked. Maybe they will see it and know that I do feel bad about my actions and what happened and that I do miss them and wish them well, I don't sit up at night hating them. I'm just not sure I want to be friends with them. If that makes sense.

I have a question: can one be lonely and antisocial at the same time? I miss having people to do stuff with and I miss the people I used to hang with, but I also like being by myself and not having to be cheerful or think of things to say so people will think I'm interesting. Eh. Sometimes everything is such an effort.

The weather outside is turning cold and stormy, I'm looking forward to snuggles and a bad medieval movie on TV tonight. And possibly sushi. What I actually feel like doing this weekend is crawling into bed and moping and wallowing, but I think it would be better for me to do something else. So, tomorrow night I plan to go out to a club. I don't know which one (it's been so long, I don't know what's open anymore) and I don't know who will be there (maybe you?) but I will have a Good Time, even if I have to grit my teeth and pretend. I'm still in my twenties, dammit, enough of this watching TV and knitting crap. I used to go out dancing alot. It's time to rediscover my youf.


* I'm not sure what the sex is, I just use whatever I feel like when I refer to it.
** Ok, more like "frequently". I'm a bad person, yes, I know. It's not enough that I succeed, others must fail.

Cheetah Outreach brings their cheetahs here for treatment. There's a king cheetah downstairs and I got to see him up close! Later, when he's unconcious, I'm going to go fondle him. Mmmm, big kitty.

So, my boss just asked me to find two charities for Christmas donations (one animals, one children). For the animals I think I'm going to go with the Cart Horse Protection Association, because I like wosses. I don't have any idea about the children's charity, though. I looked on Greater Good, but there's so many from which to choose and some of them don't seem very active at all. How do I decide? Any recommendations? Gifts4good is down for maintenance, maybe I should just go through that. I don't think the money goes to a specific charity, though.

Also, as Schedule_5 pointed out, http://wendyknits.net/stash2007.htm has done the "knit from stash" pledge. I think I will adopt that for 2008.